life is crazy.

its a rollercoaster-- full of turns and hills and loops. its unexpected, its fast, its exciting.

but it can be scary.

and it can leave you feeling sick to your stomach.

my life is no exception to that. right now, life has left me sick to my stomach. it has brought me pain and regret. My list of regrets has increasingly become larger lately. I want it to stop-- i wish i could wipe the slate clean, start fresh.

thats my hope.. is that, i can go to AC and start all over. wipe the slate clean, forget all my past troubles, and jump into life. to find fulfillment, satisfaction. i want to have fun and walk away from it without a guilty conscience. i want to be able to keep that fun forever, rather than have it turn bitter and ugly.

the world is so ugly. it betrayed me. i hate it.